The surgery is now behind me. It was a large surgery, but it went well. Now I'm home resting and regaining my strength. I have been in quite a bit of pain, and have been weak. I have had to use a walker for the time being, because I can't walk well on my own. I have been healing and making small improvements each day.
This has taught me to be patient with myself. I can't push myself right now, because I'm not strong enough to do a whole lot. That is hard for me because I'm used to having my strength and being able to do a lot of things without any problems. Learning to have others do things for me all the time has been a challenge for me. But I seem to be doing pretty well considering.
I am glad the surgery is now behind me. I praise God for opening up an earlier date, not only that, but also for the surgery starting earlier than the scheduled time. That amazed me really because, my surgeries in the past have mostly been later than the scheduled time. God answered all your prayers about it starting sooner. Now as I lay low recovering for the next several weeks, I don't want to forget all that God has done for me. Even though sometimes being down can make me very discouraged, I don't want to allow it to take over.
I believe God has many things in store for me, and now that the surgery is done, it will allow me to go further because things have been corrected physically. I know there is so much God has planned for me in my life, and I want to be sure I continue to follow Him, and do His will. God wants me to use all the hard times in my life for His glory. Meaning tell others about it, share with them what God has been doing, and how awesome He is. God has placed a passion on my heart to reach out to those who are really hurting both physically and mentally, to those who don't have much of anything, and share God's love with them. Let them hear the words I love you, and tell them they have a Heavenly Father who loves them.
I know God will continue to lead me, and guide me in the directions He wants me to go. I don't want to loose heart, when things get hard, or seem to be going slow, but I want to continue to seek God, and trust that His is using me, even in the times when I am down and low.
Thank you all again for all your prayers. You all have really encouraged me, and I thank you all for being there for me.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Strong and Courageous
"Be Strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
That verse keeps coming to me over and over again. It's during times like these I need to hear it the most. God is with me wherever I go, and He is holding me in times when it really hurts, and I feel all alone. As I look back and think about all God has led me through, I can remember when I was in the moment of all the trials in the past and I did feel like there was no one who understood what I was going through. But I had the comfort, the hope, and the peace that God was holding me, He heard my cry, and felt my pain. God knows everything, and He cares about every little detail of my life.
God is the one who is always with me. The people around me may not understand, but God does. My family may not be with me all the time, but God is. In the darkest moments, God is the light on my path. I may feel defeated, but God has overcome the world, and He has made me a warrior. I may be sitting alone broken, and tears shedding uncontrollably, but God has healed my pain. It's His still small voice that keeps me going, He strength is what I need from day to day, and He is always going to be with me wherever I go. Even when the doors close behind me on the way to the operating room, and nobody I know can be with me, God is there... I may be lying on the table, but it's not just the table I will be lying on, it will also be God's everlasting arms.
I do have a lot of fear right now... but God is working in me. He reminds me time and time again do not be afraid. It can be so hard to not let fear take over. Surgeries are painful, and usually with the ones in the past I know what to expect because most of them have been very similar. This one is new to me, and I don't know what it is going to be like at all. But again God says I am with you, and I have gone before you. He knows, and He is there.
Please pray for this next week as I prepare myself for surgery day. Praise God it has been made sooner. Pray that I will have peace, and that I will feel God's presence, even in the loneliest hours. Pray to that the surgery will go well, and for the recovery afterward. Surgery day is Monday August 16. Thank you everyone for your prayers.
That verse keeps coming to me over and over again. It's during times like these I need to hear it the most. God is with me wherever I go, and He is holding me in times when it really hurts, and I feel all alone. As I look back and think about all God has led me through, I can remember when I was in the moment of all the trials in the past and I did feel like there was no one who understood what I was going through. But I had the comfort, the hope, and the peace that God was holding me, He heard my cry, and felt my pain. God knows everything, and He cares about every little detail of my life.
God is the one who is always with me. The people around me may not understand, but God does. My family may not be with me all the time, but God is. In the darkest moments, God is the light on my path. I may feel defeated, but God has overcome the world, and He has made me a warrior. I may be sitting alone broken, and tears shedding uncontrollably, but God has healed my pain. It's His still small voice that keeps me going, He strength is what I need from day to day, and He is always going to be with me wherever I go. Even when the doors close behind me on the way to the operating room, and nobody I know can be with me, God is there... I may be lying on the table, but it's not just the table I will be lying on, it will also be God's everlasting arms.
I do have a lot of fear right now... but God is working in me. He reminds me time and time again do not be afraid. It can be so hard to not let fear take over. Surgeries are painful, and usually with the ones in the past I know what to expect because most of them have been very similar. This one is new to me, and I don't know what it is going to be like at all. But again God says I am with you, and I have gone before you. He knows, and He is there.
Please pray for this next week as I prepare myself for surgery day. Praise God it has been made sooner. Pray that I will have peace, and that I will feel God's presence, even in the loneliest hours. Pray to that the surgery will go well, and for the recovery afterward. Surgery day is Monday August 16. Thank you everyone for your prayers.
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