When does it Make Sense?

That is a question that I often think to myself. I've come to those times in life many times. I think I lost count to be honest with you. There has been times when I have said it just isn't fair. I don't understand why the road has turned in ways that weren't on my map. I probably will never understand completely why things happened the way they do. It has been a long time since I've written and shared with you all the latest on my life. I wasn't quite sure what to say since there hasn't been a ton of changes. However as I am writing this now, I felt God leading me to share more in depth about what's up. There have been those times that discouragement has sunk in. It honestly can be very hard at times to stay uplifted and find joy in tough circumstances. Sometimes I've felt totally blue. The times when I do is usually when I'm asking the big question of "why?." You know, there is no solid answer to that question. God allows me to have those "blue" moments, but He also brings me out of them. I have to remember that God sees the big picture and I don't. I may not see the purpose of this time of waiting and healing, but it is more than a time of waiting and healing, it is a time of preparation for what is yet to come. God has used me in ways that I don't always know, and He continues to. God has been working in me my entire life. My attitude should be Christ-minded and it is not my will but His will. The way that God uses me is for Him to be glorified. THrough all of the suffering and tough trials in life, I have the hope that, "Does not put me to shame, because God's love has been poured out into my heart through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to me." (Romans 5:5 emphasized) Though my attitude isn't always good, I want to always try to walk in the footsteps of Jesus and be like Him. My life has been filled with challenges, but God has been so faithful and He always will be. I don't always understand God's road map but I want to be sure that my map matches His. God is my navigator and the driver of my life. Even though it may look like we're stranded in the middle of no where, God knows where we're going, and I can throw my map out the window and trust that God will lead me through the mountains, the hail storms, and every where else. There is no better place to be than in the hands of my Savior.