That is what I had to say: "Not again!" I just couldn't believe it!
Last week I ended up in the hospital and was released yesterday. Guess what elsse is back. The wheelchair. Yeah, it is back because my legs gave out and I can't walk at all by myself, not even with the walker. There as good as jello. No, not taste wise, feeling wise! I was very close to walking normally. The morning before being admitted, I even drove my car a little ways to see how I do. No I was not alone. I drove well too, and was feeling pretty good. That night was a whole other story that I'll share with you, just ask. I have relearned my lesson that I so easily forget, that is to never take anything for granted. That goes for physical health as well. Another lesson is to keep trusting God, even in the toughest pain. I have had my share of them personally as well as with my family over the years. Again, I have many stories. ( I have updated my story on the testimony page, so please feel free to check it out. It is a 2 minute version of my story but again if you want to visit and have a cookie I'd be happy to share with you my stories!) I know that God has not abandoned me. I don't doubt He has a purpose for me. Actually even now, I know He is using me. There isn't a day that goes by that is totally in vain.
I will also tell you that my attitude isn't always good. Many times it totally stinks. My mind goes all over the place trying to make sense of it all. My number one question today is why did I go through over a year of working on regaining my strength again only to lose it in the blink of an eye for unkown reasons. I have questions, I really do. Probably all of them won't be answered. But like the title of my blog's site, "God's Got This," I hold on to that. Because knowing that is what gets me through each day. Even when I find myself in positions where I cannot even move (I mean this literally by the way), I find the strength and comfort only God can provide. Honestly, I wouldn't survive without Him. He is my everything. Even if I never walk again, God still will have me in His hands. A song that comes to mind right now, and even as I think about the words and place them in my heart the tears well up in my eyes because it is so true. That is the song, "Stronger" by Hillsong.
There is Love
That came for us
Humbled to a sinner's cross
You broke my shame and sinfulness
You rose again victorious
Faithfulness none can deny
Through the storm
And through the fire
There is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me
You are stronger
You are stronger
Sin is broken
You have saved me
It is written
Christ is risen
Jesus You are Lord of all
No beginning and no end
You're my hope and my defense
You came to seek and save the lost
You paid it all upon the cross
So let Your Name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher
Be lifted higher
I have risen victorious through Jesus Christ and ultimately His strength is what gets me through and what will get me through all the days to come. Please check out the updated version of my testimony by clicking on the link that is on the right.
