The first time I heard the song "Healer," was at my church after coming home from the hospital in the middle of my DTS. I had first learned I had Chiari Malformation, which was the starting point of the whirlwind of a ride it has been to today. At least with that, there has been plenty more as you already know.
The song "Healer," brought me not just to tears, but a flood of them during that church service that day. I oouldn't stop. I was in tremendous pain during that moment as well. This song means so much to me. During my life and especicially this past year, music has been very much my therapy. Whether, playing it on the iPad, or playing on the piano, I feel so close to God during songs like these. Music, new or old has a way that speaks to the heart. I find myself in tears the most, while listening or playing and they flow rapidly.
I was just released from the hospital again yesterday. I was there for two weeks, including a few days in the ICU. I had tremendous pain, a bad eye infection, and pneumonia. The eye came later and I originally went to the hospital with abdominal pain. A lot went on to sum it up briefly. Definitely very hard and there are no words.
When I put the music on the pain seems dimmer down. I will never forget the day I heard "Healer" for the first time. I have many other songs that are my favorites. A few of them I learned through hard times. Just to name a few, the songs "His Strength is Perfect," "God is in Control," "Through it All," " Because He Lives," and "Day by Day," are all songs that speak to me straight to the heart. They are some of my favorites that. Never get old and I have many more that I absolutely love.
In times like now when it hurts so bad I put on the music and melt away in my Savior's arms. I can live each day because He loves me so much and suffered and died for me. There is nothing greater than the love of the Savior has for you and me.
