Word of God Speak

In the rush of everyday life it can be very challenging to take time to sit still and listen to the voice of God. God has so much He wants to tell His children and often times daily activities can get in the way of listening to His voice. What about in times when we are forced to be slow because of the circumstances we find ourselves in?
As you all know, I have had a major surgery that has put me down physically. My physical strength has been knocked down big time, which has made me be still, and God has been using that. During these past couple of weeks, I have had those little nudges and tugs in my heart, whispers in my ears, and even odd dreams while I'm asleep. I know that it is not my imagination, it is not some random thoughts and it isn't anyone physical. It is the Holy Spirit. I feel God leading me again in directions that I honestly feel a little uneasy about, because again it is about that step, the step into the unknowns, and the steps in total faith. Over and over again God comes to me, puts these thoughts into my mind, and I just can't stop thinking about it. I have felt myself wrestling a little bit with it because it gets so intense, but I can't let it go because the nudges keep getting stronger.
I say to myself, "what am I supposed to do? I don't feel qualified for the job, how am I supposed to do something that seems so radical?" I have dealt with these thoughts and challenges many times through my walk, and everytime God has done incredible work in me, and has shown Himself faithful all throughout my life's journey.
A week ago, on Sunday morning I was at home. I couldn't go out to church yet because I wasn't up to it. So I pluggled my computer into the TV, and watched a live broadcast from the church I've been attending in San Diego. To make a long story short the sermon was about radical faith. An amazing service where I felt very strong nudges from God telling me "this is what I want you to have, you are going to need it for the work I have planned for you to do. You cannot walk life with Me and please Me without having faith in Me. So take all your fears and hand them over, for I will take care of you."
I know what I have to do. I have to continue to listen to the call. A call that is so strong on my heart, one that God has reminded me over and over again. It is one that makes my knees shake a little, but that's ok. God will be with me, and that is all I need.